Deimer Enrique

How do I do it?  I am only 25 years old.  I am not a father and I am years away from becomming one.  How do I look at this boy who is a child of 4 yrs old living in a 15 yr olds body.  I have never heard complaining be such a common place in a boys life.  I know that he can change and is capable of so much, yet I don't see it.  I find myself simply shaking my head in the unknown of what to do.  Yet, I inescapably arrive at still another question, "Am I truly loving this boy?"